Hello again. I’ve since had an international break (full of large, exciting lizards – I know; I’m weird) and properly embedded myself at my new place of work/old school.
Everything’s generally going well on the work side. But, as ever, it’s the romance side (or rather lack of) that’s brought me back. I was just speaking to my younger sister who is driven to the same lengths of looking online for a partner. Is this the new Catholic experience then? If you want ample choice to find a partner of the same faith, you resort to the world of profile photos, mini-bios and super-quick judgements?
For the first time in my life, I was actively messaged first by some young women on CatholicMatch last week. But here’s the snag: after years of me wondering why I wasn’t good enough, I had horribly depressing reasons for canning these. They were simply too ugly – I obviously don’t mean this takes away from their personalities or that they were too ugly to talk to. It sounds incredibly harsh and make you feel terrible but that’s the truth. Honestly, I don’t see the point of any type of online dating if this is the vicious circle where I am considered “ugly” by those I contact and vis versa for those that message me! The only piece of sanity I received was when my mother and sister agreed having seen pictures.
Needless to say, it’s as depressing as ever to see so many others (and non-faithers) seemingly in happiness from relationships whilst some of us attempting to keep the faith feel left out in the cold.
Oh and one other thing that hasn’t helped – our local church has moved its weekly service to a Sunday which is proving much less easy to make.
K.B.O. (Keep Buggering On).