Here’s something funny – writing this blog reminds me of a strange (but apparently true) story I once heard – back in the day when the BBC used to be King of radio, (so about 1930s-1940s), there was a man who got the very late shift to be on air. That wouldn’t really mean anything now, but the tale went that the respectable folk of the day didn’t stay up till the silly hours to listen, and just like anyone not popular on social media, or in the blogosphere, was largely ignored. After some months of being a normal radio host, the madness began to seep in – as he realised he never had an audience – it began slowly – he would make things up, or tell lies about news stories, spinning large tales. The more no-one noticed, the more compelled he felt to outdo himself.
At this point, the tale sounds just like a modern social experiment – interesting but harmless. However, the fella began to properly lose it, and began devolving whilst on air, resorting to noises and grunts – it gets worse: supposedly, the insanity of oblivion drove him to defecate, masturbate, urinate etc. live on air, in a crazed bid for recognition. Alas, still nothing. I’m not sure what happened to the bloke – I have a lingering suspicion that he eventually went as far as topping himself and that the audio files were simply discovered later in a BBC archive like some gruesome token of his mark on the earth.
So there – you have been warned – if this blog remains me talking to myself, you will all indirectly share the blame for any results. 😛
Anyhow, work is now better – I’ve since switched department to a marketing setting – somewhere I’m much more comfortable. After all, the job entails spinning words, so it’s something I naturally enjoy! Having said this, I still can’t shake that feeling in the back of my head – the voice that chirps “you’re wasting your days.” Am I? The problem for me is that when I’m working full-time, that’s pretty much my life – I’m often too tired (or indeed, lazy) to fit in other hobbies or meet people. But that in itself breeds a never-ending circle of misery, it seems…
As usual, there is nothing noteworthy or new to mention regarding the ladies in my life. Now work takes up so much time (and there are few-to-none opportunities at work), it’s kinda sad really. What is super-grim, is I have colleagues just as nerdy/geeky as me (which over here, is often a downside) who not only have girlfriends, but quite attractive ones too… It baffles me.
STOP. Just stop before you say “Yeah, but they’ll just be really confident, and you’re reserved.” Wrong. I am sick to death of hearing how it is my “quiet nature” to blame for a lack of opportunities. I genuinely used to subscribe to this, and yes, I will concede that it can’t help the situation can it. However, I have met far too many of my kindred spirits who have met women far out of their “league”, taller than them, louder and more extrovert. So great then. As per the record, the loud, muscular, often-dull “bros” of my generation are succeeding – nothing new there. But weirdly, men like me, and I’m talking short, quieter than me, more awkward, some look worse or are fatter etc. have somehow also found partners in overwhelming numbers. Well, what could it be then?
I’ve still been skirting around online dating, having been on/off sites. Not hit any gold and any previous nuggets have disappeared. Bug-bear of mine though – a lot of today’s women seem to complain that men are shallow and only want good-looking women, caked in make-up. I don’t disagree with them – it’s a very good, and often true point. However, take a recent example of mine. I messaged a lass I considered to be good-looking on a dating site – others may describe as geeky, cute etc. Her bio was practically a mirror of my joys in life – mentioned she enjoys museums, parks, nature, photography, creativity and more. The only thing was she was an atheist. Still, I messaged her. It would’ve been stupid not to, really. What happened, you ask? Nada. Nothing. Didn’t even get a “hello” back. When someone says something like “afternoon” in the street, is it acceptable to just blatantly ignore them? Well apparently, this is a new code-of-conduct on dating sites, especially if you’re a fella approaching women.
That’s all for now – P.S. if you’re a lurker or anything, please comment with anything, or as usual drop me an email – I’d love to hear from any guys and gals that might be reading!